Fireproof

This was my nonwinning entry into a local writing competition. I was proud of how it turned out.

Fireproof

The bitter February air stings as they open the door from Heartland Middle School. 

“I hate getting my braces tightened.” Joplin Henry complains to her mother.

“I know. But you only have five months left and then you’ll be free. I’ll take you to the mall and we can get bubble tea and a treat after,” her mother replies.

Joplin skips a little toward the car and urges her mother to hurry up and warm up the car. It’s freezing.

They make their way to Dr. Grossman’s office, and the office staff greet Joplin and remind her to brush her teeth in the back sink before she is seen. Her mother waits for her in the waiting room and flips through the latest National Geographic on the secret genius of cats. She is thankful for the break from work and doesn’t mind taking the rest of the afternoon off to spend with Joplin. The teen years haven’t hit full throttle yet, but she knows they are coming. She had been so cruel to her own mother during those turbulent years, she dreaded what karma had in store for her in retribution.

Fifteen minutes later Joplin appears before her mother, her fingers in her mouth trying to provide some counterpressure to the newly tightened brackets. “Ready?” she asks. Her mother nods in reply and reminds her to use her token in the trinket machine they had for patients. Joplin smiles when she gets a mini rubber duck. “Quack” she says as she holds the duck up to her mother’s face. Her mother had always appreciated Joplin’s whimsy—she could be a silly girl sometimes.

On the drive to the Bristlehead Mall, they listen to their Songs that Make You Jam Spotify playlist. Joplin happily chats about school, the annoying boy David Hanover who had the locker above her and would purposely drop his books on her, her hopes of opening a bakery one day, and how she couldn’t wait to eat gummy bears again. Her mother listens, nodding along as she shares her dreams.

The mall isn’t busy. It is too cold to go out for long and school hasn’t let out yet—people are at home or at work. They open the doors and head straight for the chocolate store. Her mother remembers visits with her own mother to the chocolate shop when she was little. She used to love looking at all of the beautiful truffles and chocolate dipped fruit. And in her youth, it was always such a difficult decision picking which one piece of chocolate to select when she wanted to try them all. Joplin, however, had no problem. She loved to try new things so almost always picked the monthly special. With Valentine’s Day just around the corner, Joplin eagerly requests February’s Strawberry Ganache. Her mother chooses her usual vanilla bean truffle, and they take their bag and head toward Hot Topic, savoring the truffles on the way. 

Hot Topic is running a bogo sale and Joplin peruses the piercing selection. “Please can I get my nose pierced?” Joplin begs her mother. Her mother sighs “When you are eighteen you can do as you please, but over my dead body before then. Why do you want to mess with perfection?” Her mother is not prepared for the dark cloud that comes over Joplin’s face. “I’m not perfection. Why do you say stupid stuff like that?” The mood has soured and Joplin mindlessly runs her fingers along the graphic t-shirts as her mother keeps a respectful distance. Her mother suggests bubble tea to ease the tension and Joplin just shrugs, which her mother takes as a sign to move in that direction.

They pass the kiosks, dodging the vendors hawking their wares, and order at Happy Sugar Tea. They wait silently as the worker fills the cups and then runs it through the special sealing machine, handing them their straws. They pierce the seals with the straws and her mother says, “Hey, look at that, you got it right in the middle. Nice job!” The corner of Joplin’s mouth lifts a little, so her mother takes the opportunity to apologize. “I’m sorry if I put too much pressure on you. I don’t mean to. You, of course, are free to do as you wish with your body. I just want you to wait until you are older and can understand the consequences of your actions.” 

“Okay,” Joplin responds awkwardly. 

They head to the mall exit and back into the frigid weather. Her mother clicks the button on the car and they climb into the little blue Kia Soul. Spotify starts up immediately from their previous jam session and her mother rushes to turn the volume down as she notices Joplin cringing from the sudden loud music. 

“We have to stop by the store on the way home for dinner. Wanna do $5 Sushi Wednesday?” 

“That’s fine” Joplin says, noncommittantly.

There are storm clouds in the sky moving in from the east. They drive down the highway toward the County Market in silence, the faint sounds of Lana Del Rey crooning on the radio at low volume. Joplin looks out the window at the familiar scenery. Her mother notices the rain has started on the other side of the median. It is pouring on the eastbound lanes of the highway and hasn’t crossed onto their side of the road yet, the stretch in front of them is bone dry. 

Suddenly Joplin speaks up, “Turn it up, please. I love this song.” Her mother obliges and the chorus of One Direction’s “Fireproof” hits. “‘Cause nobody knows you, baby, the way I do. And nobody loves you, baby, the way I do…” They sing along, the music bringing them together. She looks at Joplin and puts her hand on her knee and lovingly shakes it. Joplin doesn’t recoil.

Her mother turns on her headlights as the rain crosses the median and the first drops begin to fall on the windshield. They will be okay.

The Ultimate Extravagance

It was the day before my 10th birthday. Double digits this year. The stores were already decorating for Thanksgiving, with hints of Christmas peeking out of the aisles.

 “We’re here just for necessities,” my mom said, leading me toward the cake mixes. I loved this tradition of picking out my cake flavor. Mom made my cake every year and she always used a Duncan Hines cake mix as a base, but then added her extra secret ingredients to make it taste better. And homemade frosting. Always homemade frosting. Because the cake mix itself didn’t matter so much, but the canned frosting didn’t hold a candle to her homemade icing. I looked over the options, mulling a carrot cake versus devil’s food cake. And, oh, there’s the German chocolate cake too, but that icing meant getting pecans and coconut as well, and mom made it clear that her paycheck was late so I tried to be mindful of the extra expense. Finally I settled on devil’s food cake and asked for chocolate chip buttercream icing. Mom added the red and yellow box to the basket and said, “we need more eggs, too. I only have one left at home.” 

We made our way to the dairy, saying hello to the lobsters in the seafood case on the way. In front of the egg cooler, there was an end cap with individual butter sculptures carved like turkeys. Mom paused and gasped when she saw them. “Aren’t these just the most extravagant thing ever?” She ran her fingers over the box, as if she wanted to poke at the waddle of the butter turkey to see if it would gobble. She lingered a little longer, sighing that it was an unnecessary expense, but boy wouldn’t that be cool on the Thanksgiving table, before turning to the egg cooler and retrieving a dozen large. The way my mom said “extravagant” with a hint of longing, a smidgen of preposterousness, and a touch of regret made me want to experience that butter sculpture. I wondered if it would taste different, being carved up to look like a turkey. Surely it had to, if rich people were buying it. I determined right then and there that I would get one of those butter turkey sculptures on our Thanksgiving table somehow.

Mom made my birthday cake while I was at school the next day, and I opened my presents when I got home after I blew out my candles. I hadn’t stopped thinking about that butter sculpture we had seen, so when I opened my card from Papa and there was a crisp $20 bill with a note that said, “Buy yourself something extravagant…” I knew what I had to do. 

That Saturday, I asked mom if I could walk down to Kroger by myself; now that I was 10 I felt I was old enough. She agreed, but insisted on following me down and back in the car. I felt so free and grown walking down the big hill and in through the double doors. I thought to myself, “ten is old enough to walk to the grocery store by myself. It’s also old enough to start contributing to the house.”

I quickly weaved my way to the back corner of the store, praying the whole way that nobody had bought all the turkeys, and was rewarded with a whole selection of butter sculptures in the dairy. I picked one up, purchased it, and went back outside to let mom know I had made it out okay. I handed her the bag with the butter turkey in it and said, “I bought this for Thanksgiving because I wanted you to have something special.” Mom immediately started crying when she looked in the bag and said I shouldn’t have, but that it would look perfect on our Thanksgiving table. She’s always good about being grateful for gifts, even if she thinks I wasted my money. I asked if she would drive me up the big hill so I didn’t have to walk it by myself and she said of course.

At Thanksgiving, I helped set the table and put the butter turkey on a little plate in the center of the table next to mom’s yeast rolls. We said grace and loaded our plates. It was just the two of us so when we went to butter our rolls, we looked at the turkey sculpture and then at each other. It seemed a shame to cut into something so beautiful, we didn’t even know where to start. Finally mom said, “aw hell, I’m just gonna go for it” and cut that butter turkey’s head clean off and smeared it in the roll’s crevice. I started laughing at the headless butter carcass that remained and said, “I’m going to go for its butt” and took the tail feathers right off. Mom giggled and watched me as I took a bite of the roll with the fancy butter. I felt the creaminess and saltiness of the butter on my tongue and lips and pressed the excess to the roof of my mouth. I wanted to taste the indulgence that wealthy people thought nothing of and let my whole body feel its richness. Mom smiled at me and said, “I’m so thankful for you, turkey butt. I love you so much.” 

“I love you, too, mama. Happy Thanksgiving” and we devoured our dinners with the headless, buttless butter turkey between us, both of us realizing that the ultimate extravagance was spending the holiday together with a home cooked meal.

You’d Be Prettier If You Smiled

This is my entry into the NYC Midnight Rhyming Story Challenge. The parameters were 600 words max, Genre: Action/Adventure, Theme: Hunger, Emotion: Infuriated. Let me know what you think in the comments.

It was a day like no other,

It started out shitty

When the barista said

Smile more, you’d be pretty. 

So I gave him the finger,

Stomped away in a huff.

Left without breakfast and coffee,

Hoping a tic tac would be enough

To get me through to lunch

Or maybe a snack.

What was this? Construction ahead

Please cut me some slack. 

So I turn down an alley,

A shortcut to work,

When a pack of dogs confronts me

All going berserk. 

I use my only superpower 

Calming techniques through DBT.

The dogs start to back down

They can feel my energy. 

I make it to my desk

With five minutes to spare.

I ask my cubicle mate

If she’s got a granola bar to share.

“Nothing for you,” she says. 

Oh, don’t be such a twat. 

I just asked for a snack

That’s not really a lot. 

That canine confrontation sapped me

I can feel my temper rise. 

What I wouldn’t give for a donut 

Or hell a burger and fries. 

Then it hits me, 

Alleluia, I am saved.

My emergency quarters

In my desk for a rainy day.

To the snack machine I go

Clutching my quarters tight.

The Funyuns and Cheezits beckon,

They are such a beautiful sight. 

Motherfucker no. 

This isn’t happening to me. 

The bag is stuck in the coil.

Dear Satan let me be. 

I shake the machine

Then lean my head and cry. 

I think it’ll be easier 

If I lie here and die. 

Limited PTO

Gets my butt back to my desk.

I’ll have to trudge through 

I can only try my best. 

I pull up a file

And start the pre-edits.

The words run together

My stomach gives me fits.

Somehow I manage 

Over the next three hours

To beat back the belly demons

Though I can still feel their glowers.

11:30 hits,

This bitch is out

Lunchtime fuckers

Let the hungry child out. 

Move it, dude, 

You’re moving so slow

Tie your shoes elsewhere 

I’m a woman on the go. 

I get to my favorite haunt 

Without much of a fuss.

The tide is turning my way

I hope, I pray, I trust. 

Much to my horror

I see the handwritten note:

The fryer is down, 

No food today, no hope. 

And then I feel it rising 

From my gut to my cheeks,

Anger so deep

It’s been simmering for weeks.

In the blink of an eye

My head just popped

Brains and goo all over 

That poor falafel shop. 

Official cause of death

Temper tantrum caused by hanger

A leading cause in young women 

A fatal unspoken danger. 

So, you see, St Pete

There’s no way I’d be dead

If that asshole barista

Had given me my breakfast instead. 

I stand before you

A victim of circumstance.

Please let me into heaven.

Please take a chance.

Flash Fiction Friday–Inaugural Edition

In 2010 I entered the National Flash Fiction Challenge. There are four rounds in this particular contest, the first two guaranteed and the third and fourth are determined by how you place in your heat. I was fortunate enough to place in the top 25 in the nation at the end of three essays. Unfortunately, due to some unforeseen circumstances that were out of my control, I was unable to finish the fourth round. However, I was proud to have placed high enough to make it to the fourth round. Here is the first essay that I entered. The genre I was assigned was fantasy, probably my least favorite genre to write, however I dove in with gusto and came out with something that I think is pretty cool. With that, I invite you to enjoy the first installment of Flash Fiction Friday… Continue reading

Thursday Verse-Day Part 1

I don’t deign to be a professional poet, but I like to dabble in verse on occasion to accommodate my muse, who inspires me to venture into the poetic world and stretch beyond my short fiction. This particular poem is noteworthy because it is the very first time in the history of Destiny’s ever that I have written something while someone close to me was in the same room. I am a solitary writer–the closest I get to having company when I write is the person sipping their latte next to me at the coffee shop while I zone out with my earbuds and my MacBook Pro. So for me to tell Sam that I was inspired to write and then to actually sit across the couch from him and hammer out a poem was a remarkable occasion. Granted it took me a long time, something that is belied by the final product, and I basically ignored him for a good two hours while I started three different poems with only one sticking, but it gives me hope that perhaps one day I might actually be able to have that Paul and Julia-type relationship, with he in his own world coding and I in mine creating.

Here’s to stretching. And to consistency. And to the real poets out there who let me trespass on their territory to satisfy my fancies. And so I officially kick off Thursday Verse-Day.

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The Changing of the Guard(ians)

How will I know? she asked, trepidation in her quiver.

The autumn wind will blow, he said,

pressing his thumb into her palm.

The summer cicada will have chirped its last,

hobbling off to winter’s decay.

The lawnmower’s whir will cease to break

the sound of playing children,

silenced through the darkened days.

The autumn wind will blow;

twigs will snap, acorns will fall,

and nature’s litter will fill the sidewalks.

The sleeves will become long,

calming the shiver that autumn’s chill

has sent through the late days of summer.

He laced his fingers through hers.

The crisp air will fill your lungs,

lacking the sharpness of winter’s menace that follows.

The tides of your swirling thoughts will calm,

a Jacob’s ladder of refreshing clarity.

Your exhaled breath will smell of cinnamon,

a sign that change has come.

He squeezed her hand gently.

Now walk with me while the night is warm,

I am here with you now.

You will know when I am gone,

the autumn wind will blow.

Catching Up, Part 2

By Jennifer Cronin 

I told Mom and Dad that there was a monster under my bed, but they didn’t believe me. And this wasn’t just any old scary bedtime monster, I had a genuine scary-hairy-spider monster. And it stank too. Like the kind of stink that comes from when Dad takes both the sports section and the auto section of the paper in the bathroom with him. And I told them this monster could make itself really big or really small depending on where it needed to go, like when I saw it come in through a hole in the window sill or when it walked right through my bedroom door as if it were leading a parade of nighttime creepy creatures. It’s a sneaky one. I also tried to tell them that it had been threatening to steal me away for days if I didn’t keep feeding it goldfish crackers. Which is why I threw an extra long fit when Mom wouldn’t let me have a snack tonight before bed.

But did they believe me? Nope. Not even for a second. Which is why I didn’t feel the least bit bad when they had to chase that scary-hairy-spider monster down the drain cuz it had a hold of me. And they had to figure out if the yelling was from miniature me caught in the drain or the shrieks of the scary-hairy-spider monster as Mom and Dad tried to keep it from getting away. And it got all its scary-hairy-spider juice on Mom’s nightgown. And Dad nearly barfed because of that scary-hairy-spider smell. Nope, I didn’t feel bad at all. Not one single bit.

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By Kyla Zoe Rafert

Today was my lucky day. I got the red handle on the parachute. I almost always get stuck with the yellow handle, but today in music class, when Mrs. Holden told us it was parachute time, I got to help her get it out, which meant I got the red handle before Ella Peters did. And everybody knows the red handle is best. I was so happy that when we whooshed our arms up and floated that parachute so high, I looked up at all those beautiful colors and fluttered my eyelashes like it was a rainbow waterfall about to come crashing down on me. And then, when we did our cave and tucked the edges under our bottoms, I even let Doug Masterson scooch in close to me so we could keep that parachute up so high with everyone giggling underneath it. But I did not let him hold my handle. No sharesies on that. Everyone knows that.

A Matter of Viewpoint

Thanks to Artist A Day

A Life to be Envied/Emulated/Eschewed

First glance, timid smiles,

afternoon strolls, tender kisses,

soft caresses, exploring hands,

intertwined bodies, tangled sheets.

Morning coffee, candlelit dinners,

kneeling proposition, sparkling solitaire

From father to husband, I do’s,

intertwined bodies, tangled sheets.

Doctor’s checkups, pickles and ice cream,

ten tiny toes, her fathers eyes,

from husband to father, pride-filled tears.

First steps, college graduations

white weddings, grandchildren’s births,

second honeymoons, retirement parties,

arthritic bones, sleepless nights,

departing kisses, final smile.

The Open Journey of the Romantic

Thanks to Artist a Day

Today’s post bears a back story. When I first saw the rendering above, I was immediately struck by the hats on the ladies and Dorothy Parker came to mind. Initially I was just going to post an irreverent quote by the immeasurable Ms. Parker, but I forced myself to up the ante a bit. After a bit of research, I took the meter from Parker’s poem, “A Fairly Sad Tale” and replicated it into my own poem. It took me a day and a half to think about it and seven and a half minutes to write it. Such is the way with my poetry–sometimes it turns out great, other times I just get practice–it is always a quick process of writing it and then I can fiddle with it for years. Without further ado…enjoy. Continue reading