I’ve never been so unsure
Of being sure
about anything in my life.
On the one hand, my love for you is
Fierce, undeterred, immovable,
And yet it is also fluid and wavelike
as a particle in quantum mechanics.
It is overwhelming, all encompassing,
Consuming.
However, it is not unwavering.
As much as I wish to be solid as a rock,
I am but the grains of sand,
Shifting and moving to mold to pressure.
I feel my spirit drawn to stability,
To communication, digitally,
Where the telepathy leaves off.
To pet names,
to holding hands in the grocery store
To a lover’s touch,
To knowing my boundaries.
I am an orchid,
Who needs water,
And loving words,
And light to thrive.
Inasmuch as I know
Our fates are intertwined,
I also know Mars and Venus
Could never rule the cosmos.
You would have to lose
the very thing that makes us fit.
I am here but a short while,
I can love you innately
and still desire comfort.
Of this I am both sure and unsure.